UGLY SOUL

I was told to take the moral high road

But it’s kind of difficult with this addiction to the immoral high grade

From fighting with dad to giving mother an abnormal migraine

Brilliant as a child but with time they began to abhor all my grades

A middle child without love so inside I bore all my pains

Though I went to school innocent

I left with a questionable degree and an addiction to nicotine

If there was a hole I wanted; the aim was to put my penis in it

A young boy only concerned with given girls my shots like penicillin

And though it felt wrong I had no intention of fixing it

A liar who made you think that I care

But being around me could be your greatest nightmare

But with age comes regret

Wishing I could change the minds of people who say "That boy I detest"

But I never want to be liked by my request

So truth be told I owe no one an apology

My past was a phase in life’s chronology

I came into life alone accompanied by nobody

Trying to love me, my family and life but it’s no orgy

The other me should never come out because it’s so ugly